It's five months out from the Sydney Olympics, and American Misty Hyman has decided she's had enough.
The past couple years haven't been very smooth for the butterfly specialist, who catapulted to the top ranks of the swimming world with her signature underwater dolphin kicking style—fish kicking.
Hyman would dive into the water, turn on her side, and just like a fishie, would kick powerfully in both directions, surging out to massive leads in her races.
At the 1998 World Championships in Perth, she would explode to early leads in the 100m butterfly (kicking 35-metres underwater) and the 200m butterfly (touching at the 50 over 1.3 seconds faster than world record pace).
In the short course pool, she was hilariously dominant. With the added walls she could really flex her dolphin kick, breaking the world record in the 100m butterfly in 1997 while taking just 16 strokes.
But Perth would be the last chance for her to use her fish kick for extended use.
Although FINA had restricted backstrokers from kicking further than 15m ten years earlier, every other stroke was still fair game.
With just months to go until Sydney, Hyman was in the throes of self-doubt.
"I questioned everything," she said. "Maybe I'm too old. Maybe I need a new kick. Maybe I've lost my passion."
Hyman, frustrated and overwhelmed with doubt, called her coach.
"I'm ready to throw in the towel," was her message.
The underwater dolphin kick has always been a bit of a troublemaker in our sport.
There was the duel between David Berkoff and Daichi Suzuki in the 100m backstroke at the 1988 Seoul Olympics, where both swimmers disappeared under the surface of the water for 30-35m on the first lap alone.
The final was one of the big storylines in the pool that week in Seoul, with spectators and viewers watching with bated breath as half the lanes churned with backstrokers while the other lanes looked eerily empty, their occupants meters below the surface kicking furiously.
Months later, citing athlete safety, FINA changed the rules for backstrokers forcing them to surface before 10m after every start and turn. (This was extended to 15m in 1991.)
Denis Pankratov of Russia, another butterfly specialist who performed "extended breakouts" did so in an un-streamlined position, with his hands several inches apart, basically sculling. Pankratov powered to gold medals in the 100 and 200m butterfly at the 1996 Olympics in Atlanta. Other early pioneers included Sean Murphy of Canada and Mel Stewart and Jesse Vassallo of the United States.
And of course, more recently there was the debate over the "Lochte rule"—whether a swimmer could push off on their back during freestyle events to perform fly kicks on their back before turning over onto their front.
Hyman's case is particular interesting as her and her coach, Bob Gillett, had quite literally turned the novel concept of longer underwaters on its ear by having Hyman turn onto her side after diving in or pushing off.
"It's not like you can have instant success with it," said coach Gillett back in 1997, as the controversy over her kicking was hitting fever pitch. "It takes discipline to practice and develop over the years."
Since the rule change, Hyman had struggled to keep the pace, while also fighting the doubts of whether she could swim well enough to compete with the best swimmers on the planet.
She'd always struggled a little bit to bring home her races, and now she would have to depend more on her swimming ability than her kick to get onto the podium.
"It was a huge challenge," said Hyman. "I had developed a technique for swimming that brought me to an elite level. I wasn't sure if I was an elite swimmer anymore."
One of the big story-lines for the hometown Australians at the 2000 Olympics was Susie O'Neill.
Earlier that year O'Neill had erased Mary T. Meagher's storied world record in the 200m butterfly, a mark that had stood for nearly two decades.
O'Neill was also the defending Olympic champion in the event.
So when the finalists got up on the blocks for the 200m butterfly on the night of September 20, 2000, all eyes were on O'Neill and countrywoman Petra Thomas.
In lane six, Hyman.
Although she is last off the blocks, Hyman's underwater fly kick give her a quick advantage when the swimmers surface.
The body-length-off-the-start leads are a thing in the past, but Hyman's dominance on the underwaters remains dangerous.
Compared to O'Neill, who surfaces right away off the walls, her head breaking under the backstroke flags, Hyman kicks out to 10-12m, maintaining an early lead.
When Hyman touches the wall at the 150m, O'Neill right on her, observers would have recognized this as the moment where O'Neill would take control. The Australian had a history of fast finishes, including in the final of the 200m butterfly in Perth, where O'Neill sailed past a fading Hyman to win comfortably.
But the rule change has created an unexpected advantage for Hyman—she doesn't create the same kind of oxygen debt and fatigue that comes from holding her breath for twenty seconds off the start.
Where the final lap would have been her weakness, in Sydney her lungs are fresh enough to power her home.
This time, she doesn't crumble coming down the stretch.
Hyman touches first in a time of 2:05.88, just several hundredths of a second off O'Neill's world mark.
When she sees the scoreboard, Hyman erupts in joy.
She is asked afterwards why she appears so stunned, so surprised by her win.
"It's happened so many times in my mind," she said, smiling from ear to ear. "I was surprised it was real."
Adversity is a weapon
I hear a lot from swimmers who refer to adversity as something that is unfair or as something that proves they are not worthy.
They don't have the best facilities. They lose to swimmers that they outwork in practice. They feel the deep frustration of not improving as fast as they want.
But adversity doesn't mean you are unworthy.
The opposite, actually…
Adversity is the opportunity to show how worthy you truly are.
Adversity, when you treat it as such, is the engine for improvement. It's the moment where you realize you need to work harder. Or smarter. Or be more honest about how focused you are in practice.
Adversity is a launch pad for better things. Even if you can't immediately what they are.
Misty Hyman could have very well decided that throwing in the towel was the smart thing to do that spring before the Olympics.
She'd spent years perfecting a kicking style only to see the advantage be wiped away.
But in reality, that kick, the leg fitness, the breakouts, and the limitations imposed that allowed her to better oxygenate her muscles, turned out to be completely to her advantage.
Hyman had never closed well when kicking out to crazy distances.
But the shorter breakouts meant that she was indirectly forced to take in more oxygen.
Which helped her keep the wheels on during that final 50m.
Although it seemed hilariously unfair at the time—the rule change was largely driven by her specific case—the "adversity" of the rule change actually worked to her favor.
Something to think about the next time you find yourself face to face with some adversity that feels unfair and sucky.
See ya in the water,
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